Missed Yesterday

I missed posting yesterday. But hey, that's okay. Look at all these rhymings.

But yeah. Let me try and use this as a space to write. Listening to Bloons Begin by Tim Haywood.

Life is just starting to ramp up. I've felt it more this semester than ever before. I'm more of an adult, and the biggest thing is that I'm forced to manage my time. Rather than being told what to do, I'm having to keep track of it myself. Go to class, go to meetings, remembering to do this or that... It's a lot, but I'm still hanging on.

I'm nervous because I have to create my first video for a job. I want to impress them, but I'm just worried I won't be able to get it right. On my own channels and blogs, I never have to post it if I'm not satisfied, or I can make it be silly, but I'm supposed to make what they want, and I just... Idk. I hope they're satisfied, and even better, I hope I'm satisfied with the outcome. It's just nerve-wracking because I feel like I'm not the best candidate out there. I think I could be at some point, but not now. I still have a lot to learn, and yet I'm in a position where I feel like I should know everything.

Hmmm... I guess we'll see what happens.

Let me try my hand at a story. And just see where it goes.

Ehhhh. I will at some point. XD

Good writing, Jake.

Hello

 Today, I just did a bunch of work in a study hall, did awesome in Kahoot against some people, and yeah. Chill Saturday. Lots of writing.

Ahhhh!

 I realize I didn't do 5-minute writing. Idk if I will do this every day. I tried posting on my Animal Jam Lake Blog so that feels good enough. :)

5-Minute Writing

I guess I did my 5-minute writing this morning at 1:00 A.M. but yeah. Here is my 5-minute writing. I want to have some sort of topic, but I'm just rambling right now. I am next to my girlfriend, Noe.

I've been just chillinggg. I guess it's okay if this isn't 5 minutes. It's really, really snowy right now. Unfortunately, that means I have to walk in the colddd. Oh well. I hope my apartment is warm when you turn the heat on.

But yeah.

This is honestly good enough. I still want to start AJ blogging again, but Idk if I will. I'm starting a new job, I have Project 5 for coding, I have Michigan Daily video stuff, ICON Stuff (maybe), and I still want to write and pursue my own channel. Not to mention work for other classes.

Huh.

Idk. Haha, Noe is next to me. "That's a girl. Girls have cooties." - Noe 11/17/2022 10:02 P.M. EST in the JRC. "Especially right now. I have extra cooties."

Wow. This blog lol. "Like I have cold cooties, and I have girl cooties." Then I repeated it and she said "Yeah." Now she's showering.

It's cool because every word I type becomes part of this blog's history. Yet, Idk. Idk if I want this to just be a sloppy diary, where I'm writing thoughts line by line. We'll see.

Have a good day. :D Don't think that was 5-minutes, but I'm satisfied.

Another Post

Okay, so it's only been like 15 minutes, but I'm still here. I gotta go to bed soon.

Just went through all of my old blogs. Just wow. Nostalgia trip. I feel like I'm seeing things I was never supposed to see again.

Looking at my blog, it's... Idk. I hate to criticize myself 8 years later, but:

Not a super... Friendly site. It's kind of hard to read. XD I might have to change the font for the whole site, which may change the old posts. Unfortunate.

I love the snow. Gosh, I'm really feeling the nostalgia. I wanted to have snow during the winter only and then take it off. The snow is reminiscent of how everything fell apart. Just like the Animal Jam Lake Blog, my high school blog which... Ultimately changed everything. I cried over that blog.

And if you go to that blog, it is still snowing, just as it was the winter that I quit and switched to YouTube. Man.

That blog has so much on it. It's so vast. And still, it has so many unfinished plans. I wanted to document the entirety of Animal Jam on there.

That screenshot in the photo also throws me back. The Windows XP border, just wow.

I don't understand some of the posts on this blog at all. I don't feel like I wrote some of them. It seems too random, haha.

But let's just lay out, and then I'll go to bed, what do I want on this blog? I feel excited and tingly. UGH. I would have a BLAST going back to my Animal Jam blog and finishing everything. I LOVED THAT THING. I still love it. UGH. It's crazy.

But let's think about this blog. What do I want?

1. I want the blog to be readable and cozy. The font should be nice, and it should just feel friendly.
2. I want it to make me happy. I might just leave the snow up. I love the snow, and I can barely remember how I got it on the blog. Mannn... Widgets. HOLY, I remember Abowman. I wonder if it still exists.

IT DOES WOW.

I can't help but feel like I'm making a massive mistake by starting this. This is a waste of time, in a way. But it's also good for me... So we'll just keep an eye on things. But yeah.

GOSH I REMEMBER EVERY BLOG HAD THEIR OWN LOGO THING and people would put other people's logos on.

I miss it so much.

I also remember I would go to every shop in Jamaa (Animal Jam world) and check on clearances. I did an amazing job. I really like reporting, in a way.

I can't believe I'm 20.

Okay, let's continue. I can't think of anything else I want for the blog, really. I can't help but think about how no one is seeing these. I didn't care 8 years ago, but now... It's not like I'm greedy for views. I don't want a lot of people watching me. But just like, a few comments would be nice. Just... For me to write something and for it to be worth it.

I don't think I could write if I never expected anyone to see it, or if I thought it would never go anywhere. The main reason I'm doing this is because it's saved on the blog. I love how everything is saved. In Google Docs, I think I'm less motivated because it just hides away in some place. I could never do this and not publish these posts.

Huge props to my writing teacher, Mr. Joseph. I want to talk to him, honestly. I don't know if I'll prioritize it enough ever.

Man, will this blog become a diary? Sometimes it might. Maybe it should. I guess I'll just do whatever I want.

But maybe I'll add some pages on the blog, containing my writing or something. Yeah, I'll get my writing from 5th grade on here I think, and maybe my high school writing someday if I'm bold enough. Maybe not.

I want to start an Animal Jam blog again. Honestly. :( It's just not the time though. Like, the problem is, if I sacrifice a little bit in changing the content from Animal Jam blog to Bloons YouTube, suddenly I'm making money and getting views, which is cool. It is. But... Ah, it's tricky.

There's not even a word count on Blogger. You have to upload the images. You can't just copy paste. Like, the blog format has NOT changed at all. I'm surprised and honored that it's still up.

That's another thing. Blogger could end sometime. Like, I don't know how much money it takes to keep it running, but I hope Google or whoever keeps it running.

Alright. That's enough.

I feel like... This maybe only works when no one or very few people are watching. I could start a Bloons blog, and honestly, there would be parts that I'd love, but then... I'm posting for my viewers. With AJ, I posted for my viewers, but it was a lot for me. I loved it. I did it when no one was watching.

Idk. YouTube has changed for me. It did become about views at some point rather than just doing what was most fun. I can't blame myself, the views are awesome. But like... Idk.

I want to write a book, or like a story. I've wanted to since 5th/6th grade, and this is where it all started. I hope to jump back on that journey.

This is crazy, everything I write becomes a part of my blog's history.

From now on, I want to try writing for 5 minutes every day. I really considered making a separate blog for this. We'll see. I think I'll stick with this one.

I was going to go, as it's now 1:13 A.M., on 11/17/2022, but man, just looking at my old posts, they really were for me. I'm writing this right now as if someone's going to read it. Even though it's random, it's coherent and I'm explaining things. I kind of wish I could just... Not explain things and just write whatever I felt. Maybe I'll start doing that.

The reason that thought came to mind was because I was trying to sign off on this post, like, "Have a nice day. :)" and it's... I don't know. I loved doing that on my blog. But here, I just never signed off. When I was done, I was done.

I would say "So ya" a lot, not "So yeah." Wow. I remember that now. And I would put XD. XD

Alright, gotta go to sleep. Hopefully this turns my life around. It hasn't been bad lately, but I've felt kind of lost.

Cheers. Okay, sleep time. :)

7 years later

This is crazy.

Today, I am going to start trying to do 5-minute writing. This was what I had to do for homework in 5th and 6th grade, and I was one of the few kids who actually did it. I loved it, and it kicked started my love for writing and ultimately YouTube.

Recently, I came across my old blog and just had this giant nostalgia fest. Every post I made by in 6th grade, nearly 10 years ago, is still there. The 5th grade writing was actually on a wiki which has since been deleted, but randomly, maybe 8th grade, I had the foresight to save all my writing in Google Docs just in case. And I'm glad I did. I have all of my 5th grade writing which has since been lost to time.

I miss blogging. I really, really miss it. I remember when I would get comments, and just do it daily, and it was just such a cool thing in my life. YouTube has been amazing, but it's never really replaced blogging. I love just writing my thoughts and then talking with people, and creating a space that people can rely on and look forward to each morning.

However, this will be different. I will be posting for myself. Although, maybe I'll share it with a few people. I would love to be in a club where we're all doing this, and we can all comment on eachother's blogs.

I was in my internship class today, and I realized that I haven't really written anything for 10 years. 5-minute writing kickstarted my love for writing, but I almost feel like I wrote more in 5th/6th grade than in high school. Something about it... I don't know. I wrote because it made me happy then, and shared what I wanted to share. I want to re-capture that.

My original Animal Jam blogs are a thing of the past. I can't go back... At least, not now. Maybe once I have more free time, but even then, it's just a trap, as I'll fall in love with everything all over again. Man, I want to do that again so badly.

This feels so natural. I'm typing this at 12:30 A.M. but it already feels nice. I'm writing again. And what's great is that... I'm not worried about how this looks to other people. I mean, I can tell I'm doing it a little bit, I'm not saying so yeah every 5 seconds. Eh, let me say it. So yeah.

I kind of wonder... Should I be posting this on my old blog? Maybe I should.

Okay, this has now been copy-pasted to Moonwriting on the Moon. Mannnnn... I can't believe I'm doing this. I'm thinking about all the people in my class... Audrey, Grace, Ian, Ryan, Leo, Sam, Corey, Iyana, Kevin, Kylee, Brenden... It feels weird bringing up a bunch of people but eh, who's watching?

The biggest thing that motivates me is seeing the posts fill up on blogger. Like, I love clicking the drop-down menu on a year and it shows the months, and there's tons of posts to look through.

This blog feels like the real me. I feel like I'm coming out lol.

To be honest, I'm a little embarrassed about some of the things on this blog, but I don't want to change a thing. Everyone has silly stuff, and I love what I did.

To be honest, I feel like... Really proud of myself. I got up at 6:00 A.M. for multiple months (I believe) back in 5th/6th grade and I would write and work. I did that all myself. I feel prouder of that than my YouTube channel.

So... Idk. I don't want to change anything on this blog, to be honest, but I might just to make it fancier. I'll document how it was in great detail so it never goes away.

Mannnnn... I really miss Animal Jam blogging. I really miss it. :( I might go make a post lol.

Have a great day. :)